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My Worst Fear
And what I’ve learned from it
I’ve come to realize that fear is a part of life. Everyone has their own anxieties that they have to work through. Ones that have the potential to define them throughout the rest of their life.
For the longest time, I didn’t think I had any major fears. Sure I didn’t like heights, but beyond that, there wasn’t any deep fear of failure or rejection.
I was blindly making my way through life without checking in on some of my deepest fears. Masking them through a web of thoughts that perpetuated lies about myself.
Those lies were covering up my biggest fear.
The fear of not reaching my full potential. Of leaving something on the table when it is all said and done.
In a lot of ways, it’s perfectionism at its core. In others, it’s a constant worry that whatever I do won’t be good enough when I look back on the past.
It’s hard to say where this all started. Like anything, it’s not always one single thing that is the root cause.
At some level, I’ve come to believe that this all started in high school for me. A time when so many people are figuring out who they are and many more are afraid to be their authentic selves.
